Escape needed.
Big changes. New apartment. Living by myself for the first time. Not exactly what I wished for but the apartment is so fine and I got to move back to where I grew up. That’s nice. Now I’m at my boy friend’s place, or where he lives at least. We went for a long walk today back to where my grandparents used to live and where I spent a lot of my childhood. Nostalgic. I often find myself in nostalgic situations or memories and it’s not always so comfortable.
On Wednesday I’m running away from it all! I’m leaving for Holland, to visit my dear friend Elina and her boyfriend. It shall be so great and awesome to see her again and to get away from it all here! I need it. It sometimes feels like I’m close to a black hole that will swallow me. Getting away from my safe spot, that no longer feels so safe, will be a relief. A time to catch my breath and get a new view.
Still I’ve got insects of worry in my stomach.
